Hello there

Hello,

I am happy to see someone has put together this website to help others in recovery.

I am a 33 year old male who started using heroin, primarily injecting it, when I was around 20. I have quit and started back using many times. I've withdrew completely 3 times in extended stays in jail and always started using again when I got out. I've started and successfully got off methadone twice. The first time I only lasted a few weeks, the second I was clean for 3 years. About 4 or 5 months ago I started getting pain pills from a co worker every now and again for my back pain from my labor intensive job and inevitably asking another coworker for fentanyl and I've been hooked on it since. I found a place where I could get Suboxone prescribed to me and they also gave me some comfort meds. I've tried a few times to start the Suboxone but have found that I need about 5 days without using to take it without getting the precipitated withdrawals. Every time I've gotten close to getting to that point I've had to return to work and I just can't handle working while sick.

A few weeks ago my dealer sold me some stuff that is practically uninjectable as it turns into a frothy thick mess whenever my blood hits it and I am nearly out of veins from years of abuse. It takes me too long to find a vein before it is ruined and I end up breaking the needle off and injecting it into my butt. It also clogs the nose as well.

Shortly after this started happening I found a new dealer and he sold me some purple powder and after using it it was apparent that it was more tranquilizer than fentanyl. It injects just fine but it just puts me to sleep and snorting it has seriously messed up my sinuses. Also I just found out that their is a new tranq dope called Zylazine going around that can cause necrosis of the flesh from injecting and I suspect this new purple stuff may just be this Zylazine.

I don't mean to trigger anyone by talking about this stuff I only am saying it because the fact I never know what I am putting into my body is making me feel the pressure that I need to quit soon. I am miserable trying to inject myself, I'm wasting money that I work very hard for and although things could be worse, I know from experience that they can and will get worse if I continue to use.

I have 2 days of vacation scheduled a long with the weekend in a week and I plan to start my suboxone, hell or high water.

In the meantime this site has encouraged me to start the Burnese method tonight to increase my chances and I've just taken a small piece of my Suboxone tablet before starting this post.

I want to thank the creator of this website for all they are doing because junkies are people too and spreading information about the drugs we are doing certainly can't hurt this drug epidemic and I am finding info on street fentanyl very hard to find.